Just sharing one of the most inspiring poems I’ve ever encountered. I feel the need to share his amazing words everywhere. ❤
Written October 23, 2005
Before reading this, I think it is very important that you read my other post, ESPECIALLY if you think you might be suicidal. See it here: Suicidal ideation and intent: What you need to know.
This is a very old poem that I hold extremely dear to my heart. Its 99% sheer imagination, at least it was in 2005 when I wrote it. I have since experienced much of it, but I just really wanted to share it with you (collectively). You’ve been very receptive of my other writing and I look forward to hearing your feedback for Memories.
I finally made the time to scan in my favorite poem so that I can share it with you. The computer file was lost many years ago, but thankfully I have held on to the paper copy. Written October 23, 2005, Memories always has been and will always be my favorite thing that I have ever written. It emits raw, guttural imagination, touches on topics of different addictions, uses brutal language that a fifteen-year-old shouldn’t know (sorry, mom), and teases at suicidal ideation. Because of my constant love for the field of mental health and all things addiction, this poem really hit home when I started my educational career in that field. I have since decided not to complete my mental health degree (though I am still pursuing classes; that is a story for another day), but the passion that I have for all things mental health will never die.
This passion for mental health isn’t short-lived; I can still remember incorporating mental health awareness and suicidal help in a freshman economics project over a decade ago. It has been, and always will be, important to me, and that’s why this poem is so incredibly close to my heart. Many people don’t comprehend suicide, and that is understandable as there are so many different aspects to it. But, I want to enlighten you a little bit on suicidal ideation. I have never ‘been’ suicidal per say, though I would be lying if I told that suicidal thoughts had never consumed my addled consciousness.
See, there is a difference between being suicidal and thinking about suicide. Namely, in my case, this difference exists in the imagination and the sheer interest in the topic. I think about it a lot. Would I ever do it? No, because finality scares me just a bit more than anything else in this world. Suicidal ideation, I’d like to think, is relatively normal and common. However, it is usually without suicidal intent. Suicidal ideation with a suicidal intent modifier is when things can get dangerous. Check out the charts that I’ll tag at the bottom of this post. The first (colorful) chart is a great resource for determining the type and subtype of suicidal ideation and intent. This can help in understanding how different aspects of suicidal ideation or intent can exist with or without one another. The second is a scale of suicidal ideation. It is interesting in helping to understand a person’s suicidal intent.